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Eat

I can't eat anymore.
My appetite just went away.
It just went away one day.
Out of the window,
Into an automobile,
Through a door-
whenever I hear your voice...

The notion of a meal-
To have a plate set before you
never felt so distant.
I can't touch it.
Not with fork, knife nor
s Spoon.
It couldn't be away enough from me.
The dishes still need to be done.

Maybe it was a poisonous
conversation held at midnight
or mid afternoon
That drove it away.
This conversation held before me
yet I wasn't even there.
I can only picture the dialogue
forming patterns along the walls.
Then the screwed up look she had in her eyes-
While her heart dropped.
And she knew everything-
And she wished it all to be true.
Die.
Die a million times.

And you-
Spilling your guts like milk.
Handing me over on a platter.
No secrets here.
None whatsoever.
Sleep soundly with your clear conscience!
I can't force the food down at all.

I can't eat anymore.
I just gave my appetite away.
I gave it all away.
The blue birds took some.
Your girls took a little more.
And you-
With greedy hands
took the rest.
Drumming it out of my stomach
up my esophagus
out my mouth.

Malnourished and not able to swallow.
The leftovers, left to waste.